Fee Thomas

It may have four sides and a top

but careful my love,

that does not make it

A box

and in your haste

The road to liberation

ultimately could go missed

Over your fear

of tight spaces

Red and crimson may look like the same color

but careful my love,

Red is the color of lips painted

the smudge left

After a kiss

but a kiss ain’t love

Crimson is the  color of bleeding

 can’t be in this life without it

bleeding is life

bleeding is death 

Scream! —

that no one hears

After you've walked out the door

the last time

The pain! The pain! 

That shatters and makes its own noise

Be careful, my love

There is no nobility in suffering

hold on to it only as long as it teaches

and Serves

Then be done with it

Give it its own freedom to move and roam 

let it go!

A deep exhale on a spring morning.

Yeah, I hit rock bottom. It was probably the best thing to happen to me. There is something about the immense desperation and suffering that brings about an awesome rawness and purity that otherwise goes unseen. No, it's not pretty and it sure ain't elegant. But it's fierce and it's honest and it's real. The to the bone of rock bottom - we people- no longer care what others think, or what others say, because there is a fight or flight to simply stay alive. And rock bottom people will love you. No matter what you've done or what scars you have. We say, "come, I have room for you here”. We will hold you when you are shaking and will use our sleeve to wipe your tears. There is something Holy that happens at rock bottom. Knowing, being humbled, in such a way. Realizing that your very breath depends on God. Then you look across at your brother or sister and you understand that what is breathing for you, breathes for them as well. Soon...you are breathing together. Here is where one has the potential to relearn what it means to love one's brother or sister as self. You may see rock bottom as the gutter or the end. I see it as sacred and the beginning. So, yeah, I hit rock bottom. However, I didn't leave there the same way I came. And for that and so much more, Thank You God, Grateful.